For as long as i can remember i have always written. Yes i've done the whole romantic teen novel thing back in the day too... and i kept diaries- i hear now they call them "journals" so as to not sound geeky. So yes, i still keep a journal. I blog too. Also, every time i start working on a project and need to vent, i keep a separate "journal" for that too.
Why? asked a friend, Why do i need to write?
Sometimes your dreams can seem so impossible, your targets seems so unreachable, your life seem so impractical that you just can't sit there and explain it to someone else. I did once. I told someone who i thought understood me years ago about how i dreamed of moving to New York and doing my Masters and living on my own. He called me silly, told me i did not have the finances and by the time i would earn enough to go, i would be too old for masters and it would be pointless. Another friend told me, "you aren't that smart but hey, you *are* a hardworker so mayyybbee you'll make something of yourself."
Sometimes you start believing such people and their comments- sometimes you ignore. You learn to keep your mouth shut after that and share your dreams with yourself.
You become you own best friend first when it comes to impossible dreams and unachievable targets and other friends follow, because only YOU can assess you. Face it, family loves you too much, they will be biased :). Utter losers that walk this earth have been the apple of their mothers eyes and hero's in their fathers.
I have about ten diaries. I started back in 1991. I am so glad i did. Ofcourse i look back and see how i made a big deal of everything back then. Things i cannot even remember now- and that is the amazing part- you see the change in yourself- you witness internal evolution- you see who you were and who you have become in just over a decade. You might hate yourself or laugh at yourself ( i know i'm in fits when i read mine)...but you just might be damn proud too, and you won't need anyone else to tell you that because it will be evident.
And so i continue to write.
I continue to promise myself things and Allah Mian continues to make them happen
even if others have a hard time believing.
:)
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i will have to think hard before i provide my opinion for this post..hehe
Haha that's a first! :)
You know...i told a lot of people about my dreams too, and like you, I didn't get a positive reaction. I guess that's why we become our own best friend's. But unlike you I haven't been able to keep all that from getting to me...I don't know how you did that. Tips?
yummy
love this!! utterly love this one!
You have been awarded.check out my blog and stay awesome :)
My mom threw away my 'journals' while i was away at college. She thought it was just garbage.. I kinda still am upset at my self for not keeping them in a safe.
awesome!! :):)
This made me go A-ha!! and Ha-Ha and even Hah!
Made all the sense in the world to me!
I really needed to read this.
Kinda gave me hope. I am going through a tough time as a freshman at university here. Dreams just seem to be.. impossible right now. But they always do at the beginning right? :/
thank you :)
PS: the journal idea is awesome. I might try that ;)
so i'm finally going to comment on this one.
i think over the past 7years, i sort of accepted the fact that yes, we're best friends and have things in common and thats why we get along. sort of took it for granted and never needed to analyze it.
:)
you pretty much lived up to the best friend checklist.
six weeks living with you gave me unadulterated time and conversations that made me for the first time break 'this' down in my head and realize, "wow, we're so the same."
this post did it again. not because i write goals down...but the part about making goals that other people deem impossible and foolish and then making sure i don't loose focus and achieve them.
you write...i make lists. and then check things off.
and i save everything. ticket stubs, brochures, receipts... the huge stack of receipts, tickets, stubs, keychains, and random collectables are my 'journals'.
i miss you telling me to 'stop singing or you'll smother me with a pillow'.
yes you said that once. right after our joyful reunion after chicago/DC.
keep an eye out. this comment is so turning into a blog post.
Nahl: ever heard of "in one ear and out the other"? it's not a bad policy. cliched perhaps, but not bad at all.
bottom line is, and at the risk of sounding like Aunt Agony, people will say crap to you only if you let them and they will treat you like crap...again...only if you let them. eliminate the ones that make you feel bad.
:)
lizzie & M & karachiite: cheers.
Ali: thats not cool dude. put the new ones in shoeboxes and dump them under the bed. moms never throw out shoes they think you are "saving".
;)
jaded world: thank you for being living proof that the gibberish i pour out of my head makes sense to someone out there!
thespills: freshman year! and you are losing hope already? no no no. thats the most hopeful period of your entire life! this is the time to think big! like off the charts big! like i'm going to go to the moon big.
don't stop or filter them dreams just yet.
khizzy:omg a real comment after soooo long :P
i have two words for you: emotional pimp!
:)
ps: i was serious about the smothering with a pillow.
Inspirational!
ive written for as long as i can remember. i think only when you release the words out there into the universe that they swirl around making sense and actually letting you grow. a conversation in ones head- always stays just that- a conversation in ones head and stunts the capacity of growth and understanding i feel. writing out dream swishes and ides and plans only makes you stronger in your resolve to go after them :) haina?
Yea I remember reading Erich Segal Novels and people told me to get a life....To live more in reality....now I'm living my fantasy Alhamdolillah while other people are living in their "real life"
Sometimes it is the "rawness" that actually catches the eye....
Now ten journals is waaaaay toooo many...how on earth do you keep track?
lovely post and love the new header kay. :)
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yawar: :P why do compliments sound sarcastic coming from you- lol i know i know.. its me and not YOU.
jammie: i know.. you are the one who inspired me to write :)
Aftab: so you found this place eh?
i possibly have more than ten waisay :)
sharbet: i actually hate the new header but thank you for your comment :)
H: you are speechless. wonderful.
i do write too and its one of the wonderful things one can do in his/her life :) i m writing since 2004 :)
i emailed you. and i hope to get a reply soon.
naveed: :) fun na?
-me-: no email received uptill now!
lifemeansdrama@gmail.com
I just saw your comment and I swear I meant what I said =). It really was inspirational.
How do you stop others from peeking into your diary?
yaway: my apologies :)
fizza: i couldnt stop my sister...she read it and i felt utterly violated. but this was a very long time ago...perhaps in 1995...and i got my revenge by reading hers...and what followed were a series of very interesting events- but thats another post for another day perhaps :)
hey i've emailed a few times to the same address. wonder why you're not getting them. =S
how do you put the pictures in the comic strip form. do you use photoshop or is there a template for 'a softer world' kind of pictures? i'm interested in photography and found your blog quite inspirational.
hey sara- finally got your email!
will be replying soon! :)
Your posts are super duper inspirational. love them to bits. thanks for writing and taking pictures. never stop doing that, please. you mostly speak/write that i can't usually frame but it's there in my mind but its all too cluttered n u make it sound so simple!
great work there, truly!
Aashlesha- that was a very sweet message :)
thank you!
i'm glad you can relate!
stay in touch :)
totally agree with aashlesha. you really make it all sound very simple. i cant wait for your next post and i'm still waiting for your email. =)
hey kay,
i m new here n had read ur other story n decided to follow ur blog...
u knw i didnt read the comments ppl hv given u bt i would really like to say that i LOVED this particular update...
i hv jt discovered an interest in writin bt yeah i dnt keep journals n all bt i love to express myself thru it...i must say that wht u hv mentioned here is 100% a TRUE FACT as i hv experienced it PERSONALLY...
i appreciate ur writin n hope that i can improve myself too..
all the best n hv a gr8 day...
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